The kids came to go swimming yesterday. Despite the fact that it never rained, Kylie spotted a rainbow. It was a very short section with orange, yellow and green stripes. It seemed to start from behind a white, billowy cloud and faded into the sky on the other side.
I painted part of the kitchen yesterday as planned. Like many things, it seemed to take longer than planned. Even the prepping to paint took far longer than I expected because I ended up repairing the wall above the entry. There must have been a leak in the attic because the paint was separated from the wall and the drywall plaster was all chalky and needed to be scrapped off. I had to make my second trip of the day to Home Depot to get some drywall compound and fix up the wall. I wish I could say it was masterfully done but it wasn’t really. You can see the somewhat uneven application (or was that bad sanding?) when the sun shines on the wall. I still have to finish the part of the ceiling that was affected. I didn’t bother to finish that because I didn’t have to paint the ceiling. Immediately after I finished painting I went down to the mailbox to see if Netflix had left me a gift and ran into my next-door neighbour, Laura. I invited her to look at all my handiwork and we spent an hour or so chatting. I think I may have found a new friend!
Eduardo had to come back after leaving with the kids to get his study book. He left it. While saying goodbye, he started crying. He said he missed me. This morning he called in response to my VM inquiring about how he felt and he was crying again. He said he still missed me. I talked to him for a bit in a effort to cheer him up. I never thought I would see the day where a man cried more than I did over the end of a relationship. And to a large degree, I really don’t understand it. He was the one that wanted to leave me to go back to Kelly and the kids. Really, he was just making that whole relationship official after everything was said and done because he had left me spiritually and mentally long ago for them. I do miss little bits of what was between us but overall I am content with being single. Long ago, Eduardo once said that the reason why I was with him was because I didn’t want to be alone – like he was better than nobody. I never felt that to be true and now being alone and not being particularly bothered by it, I know that not to be true. I am fine being alone and not in an intimate relationship. I was with him because I wanted to be with him.