On Christmas Day, I received a text from Gil saying Merry Christmas. On New Years Eve, I called him back and left a message. He called me back and we chatted for an hour or so. We made arrangements to see each other in the New Year. And we did… last night for about an hour.
I walked him to the car and we hugged. A couple of times. And that place in my heart that tells me if I am interested…. its interested. And I told it to shut up and behave itself. I am absolutely not rushing into anything with anyone until I can figure out if he can treat me properly. Pattie isn’t so far off when she says I need someone who can treat me right. Not repeating the past.
And this guy I met on Match.com and seems nice, punctual and respectful? That place in my heart seems to be completely silent. Usually by now, I would have told him I wasn’t interested but friends have been saying I need to give these guys a chance and not base my interest on the first few dates. So I have gone out with him a number of times and that place in my heart is still silent. There is a bit of a physical spark but I think that is due to just being combustible (a friend’s terminology) because it has been a long time since I my body has gotten near a man.
There is just no understanding attraction.